I really wish I could keep up with this more regularly. I think it would prove to be ____ now and ____ down the road. God is good and it is essential to remember what He has done.
It has been a challenging last few days at our house. Dylan's teacher told me awhile ago (can't quite remember when) that he was on a downward spiral; that he was heading into his depressed mode. The impact of his negativity, back talking, arguing, blaming, etc had begun to take it's toll on me. Finally tonight I was really getting to the point where I'd had it. All of a sudden, Dylan had done something and instead of me snapping or yelling at him or even getting upset with him, I had a light bulb moment. Instantly, it occurred to me that Dylan was operating out of depression and I was able to calmly and lovingly talk to him about it. What normally would have ended with me yelling at Dylan and/or sending him to his room and him crying over that, ended with us talking, hugging, and Dylan crying in a healing/healthy way. I have prayed for awhile that God would make me others minded; that He would help me to focus on how my reaction effects the other person instead of focusing on what that person is doing to me. I have also been praying that He would teach me His ways. Tonight, my ability to deal with Dylan in that matter was an answer to those prayers. I was also able to tell Dylan that he needs to give his problems to God rather than lashing out at me.
I can't really explain it any better than that. I know that there are many things that I understand in my head, but it is a whole other ball game when I experience it. That is what happened today and I hope it sticks. Dylan deserves a palm tree with feathers (will explain another day)
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