Well that night I did well with going to bed, but the next night... not so well. Here I am almost 3 weeks later and I still haven't got it down yet. Some days I do better than others but most I don't do so well. "All it takes" is for me to let things go and just go to bed when I need to and yet... I say all it takes sarcastically because although it seems like an easy task, it really isn't. The thing is it's what I NEED to do. I really need to learn to manage my time better (which would also help with the bed time thing).
A big part of managing my time better is setting and keeping boundaries and learning to die to my flesh (which in order to do the first I must do the second). Neither of which are easy to do. Hopefully by the end of the Boundaries study I'll be a lot better at it. The problem is that it's easier when you're going up against someone else rather than yourself. It falls back to dying to yourself: doing what is right in spite of what is _______. You fill in the blank. I'm going to bed. (Probably not really. There's too much I still want to get done. When does it ever end? Oh yeah, when I decide to take action and die well. Lord help!)
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